Old self

For those that actually do read this, time is starting to go at a more normal speed. And I am starting to feel more like myself.

Though you’ll probably not notice if you run into me, I am one that tends to keep their emotions inside, and it is rare for me to actually show them in a physical manner. I can be extremely happy or sad and my face will show no sign of either. It’s actually not something I do by choice it sort of just happens. Some people that no me not all that well believe that I am not an emotional man, however they are wrong.

I am a living example of the old saying Don’t judge a book by it’s cover.

Friends, chocolate and love

Have you ever had a friend that for some reason just stopped talking to you? Well I have. More times then I care to count. Usually for me it just happens. I become pretty good friends with some of these people and then bam it’s like they don’t care you exist.

So why I’m thinking about it lets talk about chocolate. I have heard that chocolate is supposed to make you feel that you are in love. I must say that I have had chocolate and have been in love and frankly I don’t think they are even near each other. For one if I eat to much chocolate I get sick, however love I just can’t get enough of. Chocolate it melts, the feeling it give you goes away, with true love it stays. Some of you say that love stinks or that it is over rated. That usually means you have been hurt in the past, and I truly feel sorry for those that do not give love a second chance. And another thing, I hate it when people say loves sucks, cause frankly I just don’t get it. Does the love for your family suck? Or is it the love for your friends? Or is it over that chick that broke your heart last week? Do ya see what I’m getting at?

Their is a quote by someone named Randall G. Leighton and he says, “Work like you don’t need money, love like you’ve never been hurt and dance like no one is watching.” In other works, enjoy your live, be happy. Do not look back on the regrets of yesterday, move on to today and smile at a friendly face.

Random

So I was gettin ready to make lunch today, and I was lookin around and I saw Chicken gravy. So I thought to myself that chicken sounded good. So I made the chicken and as I took the first bite I realized I did not want chicken. No I wanted chicken gravy.

Their was a parade today in Pittsburgh, do to the Steelers wining the Superbowl. I did not watch the game, I don’t really like sports all that much. I was planing on watching the parade, and I was actually their for a while. But I do not like being in a large crowd where people keep bumping into me. That and like no matter where I stood someone would come along and start smoking. I can not stand cigarette smoke. I can’t breath around it and depending on what it is it may make me feel sick. So eventually I had enough and left.

I have been trying to clean and organize my room, but I do not have any idea where to start. I am not one known for their organizational skills.

I have been wondering why some people do the things they do. My roommate almost got kicked out of school because he has failed a third of his classes. This quarter yet again he says things will be different. He even stopped playing World of Warcraft to focus more. But now he is back playing WoW and he has already missed one class. I know that my roommate wants to stay at this school, I know he is in the major that he wants to be in. Yet his actions seem to speak otherwise. I simply can not wrap my mind around it.

I have bought a 360 and I am starting to wonder if I should. For I only have 2 games for it and one I’ve already beat. And I really don’t play it all that often, I wish to get more games for it but I don’t want to spend money on them. I have to many other things that I need to buy first. I do not think it was a wise decision on my part.

Happy?

Yesterday I had fun.

I felt happy yesterday, and I feel happy today.

Man I miss happy… Happy feels good.

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Slowing down?

Everything seems to be moving so slow. A few minutes feels like an hour, a few hours feels like a day. The world itself has seemed to slow down.

I’ve been back in class for 3 weeks and it’s felt like almost an entire quarter has passed. I look back to things that happened on Monday or a few days ago, and I think to myself that its felt like such a long time ago and I question if it indeed happened on that day, but I know it did.

I don’t know why everything is moving so slow for me. Things used to like fly by but now everything seems to be moving at a snails pace. One day feels like two days, one week like two. And now that I’m actually lookin forward to something, time seems to go even more slower.

Slow, everything so slow.

Cathing up for the past 7 Weeks

So I haven’t really put anything up here in a long time. For three weeks I was unable to get on the internet, however for three weeks I’ve had almost unlimited access to internet, so I have no real excuse.

Their really is no reason for this post, or at least not yet, I’m just goin to ramble on about anything that comes to my mind. Just thought I’d tell ya ahead of time.

So I”m not sure if people I don’t know read this or what, so yeah. I’m a student at The Art Institute of Pittsburgh. You have to have the The go to most sites that ask you what college/school you go to and you will not find AiP under the A section, nope it’s under the T section. Makes it sound kind of stuck up bet eh, what ya goin to do. One thing that I hate and do not understand is the kids that come to AiP, because they think it’s easy. I just want to smack these kids in the head. This is one of the most expensive art schools around, if they wanted easy they should have stayed and went to some community college or something. But here they are spending all sorts of money because they want easy. Better yet if you want easy, don’t go to college and work at McDonald’s for the rest of your life.

Oh and for those that thing an art school is and would be easy, well, I hate you to. The kids that go here, that really are passionate about doing what they want to do, deal with the same stress and pressure that any other college kid would. In fact I say that art college kids deal with pressures and stress that other college kids do not. They do not need the added stress of you labeling them, and talking down about them.

People need to stop talking about religion in public period. I’m tired of hearing it. Even from myself. Religious wackos and Atheist wackos and other nonbelievers, shut the fuck up. I’ve had enough. Neither of you are goin to change the others mind, so why the hell try?

Racism? How the fuck does it still exist in our “civilized” society. I do not understand how one can be so angry at another person just because their skin is a different color. In my personal opinion you do not deserve to be considered a good person if you are racist. I mean we, here in America, like to consider that we live in a country of equality, but again in my opinion, we are so far from that notion that it’s scary. America, the land in were we say one thing and do another. This paragraph goes for sexism as well.

Also people who get so fuckin worked up about homosexuality, need to shut the fuck up. If you don’t like it, well the fuckin look away when you see to guys or girls holding hands. I know not a single guy that minds it when he sees lesbians, but if these same guys see two guys together, well man they just freak. We have no right to keep to people that love each other apart and that is that.

So why I’m at it, lets hit on the topic of abortion. Oh yes. I am 100% pro choice. I believe that every woman has the right to decide if they want to abort the baby. I would rather them have the baby and put it up for adoption. But sometimes that just isn’t an option. Because what happens if a women that can’t afford all those freakin hospital bills that come from havin a baby? And yes abortion is way cheaper. What if that women was raped and got pregnant? Do you still believe that she could keep the baby. Yes I hear the arguments for pro life and I agree, with most of them. But again I do not believe that we have the right to take that right away.

So, man, I’m was like a bundle of anger back their. So what else can I talk about. Hmmm. Dr. Pepper is the most amazing thing of all time, and I spend way to much money on it. Same for milk though. Go through a jug a week at least. I like milk. It’s been pretty cold outside for like a week and I haven’t been feelin all to well.

So I still have no idea what exact career I want when I graduate college but I do know that I do not want to be designing web pages, just do not like it at all. However I do know that I would wish to get a career in which I would draw illustrations. I would really love to be an illustrator, that would be like my dream job.

I have a question to pose, just in case a teacher of some sort finds my blog and actually reads this far down. Why would one become a teacher if all they are going to do is belittle, make fun of, and harass their students? At first I thought that it was just the tough love approach, but this goes way beyond that.

So I was in class on Monday and I was workin on this picture of lets say a well gifted lady, and my teacher was showing a different way I could do the illustration. He started working on her eyebrows, and he looked at me and said, “Wow she really does have fake ones in doesn’t she.” He worked for a few more seconds then looked back at me and said, “I was talking about the eyebrows by the way.” As of yet it is the funniest thing that has happened to me this week, and one of the highlights of my week so far.

The more I try to expand my music taste the more narrow it seems to get. My top two favorite bands are Disturbed and Metallica. Fallowed by AC/DC, Godsmack, Rob Zombie, Marilyn Manson, and Korn. And it seems that the more I try to expand the more I find that well I don’t like anything non Rock or Metal. I’ve found a few songs here and their but never like a band that I would actually listen to all their songs.

Last Monday my right knee popped and I’ve been limping on it ever since, however last Thursday my left knee popped and know I’m limping with both legs. If feels that I’ve been walking with a bounce. And then today like I’ve been getting like chest pains. I think I pulled a muscle, at least that is what I hope it is.

Oh and if anyone hasn’t checked out my deviantart recently they should, I’ve been putting up a lot of stuff recently and I want to get as much responses on it as I can. Tell me what you like and what you don’t like and all that jazz. Here it is in case you don’t know.  http://blackgriffon.deviantart.com/

Well this is really long, and I can’t even remember what all I’ve said in here so I think that I shall stop writing for now, and I shall try to keep this updated more often. Thanks

Hello

Hey, I’m just writing this in case their actually is anybody that actually comes here to read new stuff. I really haven’t had that much to say in the past couple days.
I’ve been kinda down recently and I’ve been trying to figure out why. It’s a little odd, cause I’ll be like totally fine and what not but then all the sudden I feel all sad and what not. I thought I figured it out, but I was wrong. I think it’s just a bunch of stuff that I’ve been dealing with that now is just turning into one big ball of stuff I don’t know how to deal with. But I really haven’t a clue. Like I said as soon as I think I figure it out and start to feel normal again this feeling I have right now comes back. I’m not really sure how to describe how I am feeling right now. It’s kinda like a mix between sadness, boredom, and loneliness, and maybe a few other things. I’m not really sure. All I know is that I’ve never felt like this before and frankly I’m tired of feeling like this. It sucks, it really does.

Well why I am here I think I wish to remind people, and maybe even myself, of this old saying, “Do not judge a book by it’s cover.”

Also am I the only person out their that just can not understand women? I just do not get them at all sometimes. I’m pretty annoyed at the whole female population right now, they just drive me crazy and I’m tired of it.

I’m just tired of feeling sad but I can’t seem to stop, no matter how much I want to, no matter how much I try