Thoughts of Today

So it’s been a long time since I’ve wrote on here. Not really sure why that is exactly. Truthfully I’m not even sure why I am writing on here now. I really don’t have anything really to say so I’m just sorta say whatever comes to mind.

A lot of people, I have come to notice, tend to act immature for what I would say for no reason as all. A few people I know for some reason I can’t really figure out hate each other, but yet they do not try to talk about it or settle their differences. No they make videos to put on youtube or draw pictures to hang on walls. And it shows no signs of stopping.

A roommate of mine came back one night, about midnight, I have been asleep for a few hours by then, but he comes back and makes more noise then should be humanly possible. However I just let that go and tried to go back to sleep. However apparently he found something in the fridge that was bad and somehow he figured it was mine. I say this cause he has only been living with me for about 5 or so weeks by then. Does he simply leave the matter alone and simply ask be to remove it tomorrow? Now he goes on this rant for about half an hour, calling me stupid, retarded and blah, blah, blah. And another thing I still have no idea what it is that he found in the fridge that was “mine”, cause he goes on this cleaning spree in the fridge, through out almost everything that was in their. Most of which I’m sure was not his. Making even more and more noise. At this point I was still like whatever and just laid in my bed trying to go back to sleep. However he did not stop running his mouth. Finally about 1 o’clock in the morning I got out of ben went to the room he was in and said, “I’m going to say this once and I’m going back to sleep. If you have a problem with me say it to my face, thanks.” And thus I went back to bed. I heard him shortly after say, “So he waits till after I clean the fridge to say this?” or something close to it. I smiled to myself and though, why of course I did if you handled this like the adult as you should have, none of this would have happened.

I am sick an tired of hearing people complain non stop on how bad their life is, of how boring it is, how they never have any fun, blah, blah, blah. Well I hate to tell you this but your life ain’t all that bad. Do you think the homeless person standing in the rain asking for change so that he can buy his next meal is thinking, well at least I’m not you. Their is nothing wrong about complaining once in a while, but doing it everyday in almost every conversation you have, well to you people I say worry about someone else besides yourself for a while. Watch that commercial abou the little kids starving to death in some village somewhere. However if you live is as bad, as dreadful, terrible and boring as you say so well go do something about it, and stop complaining to me and other people about it, for we really can’t do anything about it.

I hate car horns, and for one I think they should just stop putting them in cars all together, or change the sound to something less hurtfull to the ears. I was waling  along the sidewalk when I came to this road and traffic wasn’t moving at all, I thought huh this is weird for a sunday. But then I notice a police care, it appears that their was a fender bender or something holding up all the cars. So then this one guy pulls up and within a few seconds he just goes nuts on his horn. I just wanted to go up to him and say, look bub, their is a car ahead of you, and car ahead of that car and 5 more cars ahead of that one. Their is a police car and a tow truck over their. What the hell do you think you are going to accomplish by blowing your horn? Luckily however the passenger in the car was able to calm him down I believe.

A lot of people say that they are trying to find themsleves. I however believe that you do not have to find yourself, cause you are already yourselfs. You are who you are. The actions you do day to day make you who you are. You do not find yourself, you create yourself as your life goes on.

Well I can’t really think of anything else to say so bye again for however long.

Slow Down People

I think that people need to learn to slow down. Not only do most of them need to slow down to smell the roses but I also believe that they need to stop and appreciate its beauty.

People walk fast, they drive fast and they talk fast. No one ever just stays still and enjoy the moment, but always moving on or thinking of the next. We have fast cars, speed dates and even fast food. Do we really need everything right now? Can we not sit and wait with respect and dignity? As I walk by the cars on my way to school their is always someone that honks their horn, and I wonder what they are thinking. The light is red, the car in front can’t move forward. What do you want that car to do? Try and run the red light and risk getting in a car accident so that you do not have to wait?

I’ll be waiting at a cross walk that clearly says do not cross, but yet their is always someone that tries to run right past it. Do you really need to risk getting hit by a car to get to your destination a few minutes quicker?

I’m usually not in a hurry to get anywhere. I walk slow, and I look around at the world around me. I look at the people and they seem so lonely some times. At least 5 people around but yet they are alone, stuck in their on little bubble afraid to see the world beyond. I implore you as you walk past a stranger do not ignore them, look them in the eye and flash them a smile, nod your head in their direction, or wave your hand. Their are about 6 billion people in the world you don’t have to be by yourself.

Slow down, take time out of your schedule to greet a stranger and maybe even make a new friend.

Bad mood

People that are in a bad mood either need to take the day off or keep it to them fucking selves.

When I walk up to you and say hey, I don’t know you are in a bad mood, I don’t know that your day didn’t go all that well, so please keep your god damned bad mood to yourself.

If you don’t want to talk to people, go home and be by yourself. Do not put yourself in a situation where people could possibly and more then likely will talk to you.

Fuckin were a sign around your neck saying, “Bad Mood! Do not talk to me”. I’m sick and tired of going up to someone and talk to them only for them to say something either mean or hurtful back. Fuck ‘em.

Sadly the people in which I talk about here usually don’t read this, just needed to vent.

World War 3?

I have been thinking about the world.

I do not think that their will be another world war, for I think that the human self preservation instinct is to strong to allow it. For everyone knows that if a new world war came about most of the human race would die. I do not think that we would allow that to happen, and i think we would go to great measures to avoid it.

However something really bad could happen, and all hell could break loose.

Why am I an Atheist

Why am I an atheist? Well, why are you not?

Terrible horrific things happen every day, but yet religious people will say its all in gods plan. God’s plan is to kill people of starvation, have babies die at birth, have people murder other people, not tell us which religion is right so that we fight and kill each other trying to prove that we are right? Oh man, that sounds like an awesome plan!

Or better yet you say it’s all in God’s plan but when something bad happens it was the devils fault. But I thought God was all powerful and shit, couldn’t he kick the devil in the balls and say “Get out my yard!” or something?

He is one of my favorite quotes that I found, “Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?”

Why do I not believe in God? Well Why don’t you believe is Zeus?

Now take whatever you gave as an answer to why you don’t believe is Zeus, not that is why I don’t believe in God.

People that believe in God say that people that don’t believe in God are evil… Have you read the Bible? How many people does your god kill, how many people die in his name? Fuck, I mean if that book is right God has whiped out entire civilizations. Dude God sounds like a great guy.

I do what is right becuase I know it is right, I do not do evil things because I know it is wrong. Right is right, and wrong is wrong, god or no god. You do the right thing for you fear  going to hell and want to get to heaven. So are you saying you don’t do bad things cause you don’t want to go to hell? This is were I get kind of lost. You seem like a nice person and you do nice things, but yet you say you only do it to get into heaven. So now I’m not sure if you actually are a nice person or if you just fear your God so much that you are nice.

So I’m goin to burrow something from the great George Carlin, if you don’t know him, I suggest you look him up. Here it goes, If God is real may he strike me dead. Ok, if God is real may he strike me dead right now!

Hmmm ……. I’m still here. Damn.

Human

Sometimes I wish I could be an immortal so that I could watch and observe what it to become of the human race.

I find us to be a rather interesting race and I would like to see what we could become. I believe the human race could become a great race, but I believe we are still far from it at this point.

We look down and mock other humans for we deem them uncivilized or beneath us. We always look to what makes us different, be it skin color, nationality, or some other stupid thing.

I believe one thing that people forget to easily is that we are all people, we are all human. Yes somehow some of us choose to ignore this and disregard it.

They may not understand you language, they may not understand how you live, and you may not understand their language, and you may not understand how they live. But are they not still human, do they not have the same emotions as you? Do they not feel love and anger, do they not feel happiness nor sadness?

Try as I may I can not seem to understand how humanity works. How can we say someone is beneath us, how can we treat them as they are beneath us? How can we kill another human without giving it a second though. We think of ourselves as a great race that is full of compassion and sympathy, and sometimes we are, but other times we are full of other things. We call ourselves better then animals but how can this be when we are animals ourselves?

Someday the human race may become what it wants to be, what is says it is, but that day is still far away I believe. I’m not even sure if the human race will last long enough to see that day.

Atheist

After much thought and consideration I will now consider myself an atheist. For the bible is full of contradictions and its tales are just to similar to other religions. I do not believe their is a god or any higher power.

And yes I’ll still celebrate Christmas when December 25th comes around. For me it was never about the resurrection of Christ. It was bout bringing people together and bringing happiness to your loved ones.

I be agnostic

I be agnostic. For those of you who don’t know what that means, it means that I do not know if you god exist or not. For one to many evil things happen in this world everyday, and thus I can not believe that your god is as good or as powerful as he claims himself to be, if he is even real. Seconds mankind has believed in a higher power for eons and I can not simply cast this aside. So I do not denounce any god. Does a god exist? I do not know. And frankly my dear I know longer care. I shall live my life how I want to live it, and make no decisions on the fact that I fear going to hell or fear from any other god. However I shall do what is right, for what is right is right, what is wrong is wrong, no matter what you believe in!
This not knowing for sure used to bother me a lot. However I came to the realization that I did not need to know. And that I’ll find out the truth when I die. And frankly I’m not in any hurry to get to that point.

Me

I feel that I am changing, for the better that is. I feel more confident then I have in a long time and I feel total comfortable with myself. I really can not explain it. It just sorta happened. I no longer feel afraid to act like myself around others. I no longer fear saying what I think.

I used to hold back and not do what I wanted and not say what i wanted. I have always wanted to change that but I did not know how, and now it has just sorta happened.

However I have also noticed that I have been slightly more aggressive then I usually am. I think part of it is that I got tired of people walking all over me when the found out that I was a nice guy, and all the other stuff nice guys have to deal with. Do not get me wrong, I am still a nice guy and all, just do not try to walk all over me. that ain’t going to happen anymore.

Also I used to ignore it when people told me my believes were wrong, however when I try to show them why I believe what I do they just get angry. I used to just say whatever and get on with my life. However I am tired of it. You come to me and tell me my believes are wrong do not be surprised if i say the same to you. Also if you do not like what I have to say about things you do not have to listen or read it, whatever the case may be. However if you wish to discuss are  different believes in a peaceful manner I would be happy to do so.

P.S. I do not like cheese

Rain, rain, rain

I like the rain. I like to stand in the rain, for as long as a I can. I don’t know why it’s just another weird thing that I do. I like to listen to the rain as it hits my hat. I like to watch as it splashes against the road. Making everthing appear to be shinny, at least for a while, everthing is clean. When it rains it means the plants will not die, that the rivers will not dry up, that we still have water to drink