Thoughts of Today

So it’s been a long time since I’ve wrote on here. Not really sure why that is exactly. Truthfully I’m not even sure why I am writing on here now. I really don’t have anything really to say so I’m just sorta say whatever comes to mind.

A lot of people, I have come to notice, tend to act immature for what I would say for no reason as all. A few people I know for some reason I can’t really figure out hate each other, but yet they do not try to talk about it or settle their differences. No they make videos to put on youtube or draw pictures to hang on walls. And it shows no signs of stopping.

A roommate of mine came back one night, about midnight, I have been asleep for a few hours by then, but he comes back and makes more noise then should be humanly possible. However I just let that go and tried to go back to sleep. However apparently he found something in the fridge that was bad and somehow he figured it was mine. I say this cause he has only been living with me for about 5 or so weeks by then. Does he simply leave the matter alone and simply ask be to remove it tomorrow? Now he goes on this rant for about half an hour, calling me stupid, retarded and blah, blah, blah. And another thing I still have no idea what it is that he found in the fridge that was “mine”, cause he goes on this cleaning spree in the fridge, through out almost everything that was in their. Most of which I’m sure was not his. Making even more and more noise. At this point I was still like whatever and just laid in my bed trying to go back to sleep. However he did not stop running his mouth. Finally about 1 o’clock in the morning I got out of ben went to the room he was in and said, “I’m going to say this once and I’m going back to sleep. If you have a problem with me say it to my face, thanks.” And thus I went back to bed. I heard him shortly after say, “So he waits till after I clean the fridge to say this?” or something close to it. I smiled to myself and though, why of course I did if you handled this like the adult as you should have, none of this would have happened.

I am sick an tired of hearing people complain non stop on how bad their life is, of how boring it is, how they never have any fun, blah, blah, blah. Well I hate to tell you this but your life ain’t all that bad. Do you think the homeless person standing in the rain asking for change so that he can buy his next meal is thinking, well at least I’m not you. Their is nothing wrong about complaining once in a while, but doing it everyday in almost every conversation you have, well to you people I say worry about someone else besides yourself for a while. Watch that commercial abou the little kids starving to death in some village somewhere. However if you live is as bad, as dreadful, terrible and boring as you say so well go do something about it, and stop complaining to me and other people about it, for we really can’t do anything about it.

I hate car horns, and for one I think they should just stop putting them in cars all together, or change the sound to something less hurtfull to the ears. I was waling  along the sidewalk when I came to this road and traffic wasn’t moving at all, I thought huh this is weird for a sunday. But then I notice a police care, it appears that their was a fender bender or something holding up all the cars. So then this one guy pulls up and within a few seconds he just goes nuts on his horn. I just wanted to go up to him and say, look bub, their is a car ahead of you, and car ahead of that car and 5 more cars ahead of that one. Their is a police car and a tow truck over their. What the hell do you think you are going to accomplish by blowing your horn? Luckily however the passenger in the car was able to calm him down I believe.

A lot of people say that they are trying to find themsleves. I however believe that you do not have to find yourself, cause you are already yourselfs. You are who you are. The actions you do day to day make you who you are. You do not find yourself, you create yourself as your life goes on.

Well I can’t really think of anything else to say so bye again for however long.

Slow Down People

I think that people need to learn to slow down. Not only do most of them need to slow down to smell the roses but I also believe that they need to stop and appreciate its beauty.

People walk fast, they drive fast and they talk fast. No one ever just stays still and enjoy the moment, but always moving on or thinking of the next. We have fast cars, speed dates and even fast food. Do we really need everything right now? Can we not sit and wait with respect and dignity? As I walk by the cars on my way to school their is always someone that honks their horn, and I wonder what they are thinking. The light is red, the car in front can’t move forward. What do you want that car to do? Try and run the red light and risk getting in a car accident so that you do not have to wait?

I’ll be waiting at a cross walk that clearly says do not cross, but yet their is always someone that tries to run right past it. Do you really need to risk getting hit by a car to get to your destination a few minutes quicker?

I’m usually not in a hurry to get anywhere. I walk slow, and I look around at the world around me. I look at the people and they seem so lonely some times. At least 5 people around but yet they are alone, stuck in their on little bubble afraid to see the world beyond. I implore you as you walk past a stranger do not ignore them, look them in the eye and flash them a smile, nod your head in their direction, or wave your hand. Their are about 6 billion people in the world you don’t have to be by yourself.

Slow down, take time out of your schedule to greet a stranger and maybe even make a new friend.

Bad mood

People that are in a bad mood either need to take the day off or keep it to them fucking selves.

When I walk up to you and say hey, I don’t know you are in a bad mood, I don’t know that your day didn’t go all that well, so please keep your god damned bad mood to yourself.

If you don’t want to talk to people, go home and be by yourself. Do not put yourself in a situation where people could possibly and more then likely will talk to you.

Fuckin were a sign around your neck saying, “Bad Mood! Do not talk to me”. I’m sick and tired of going up to someone and talk to them only for them to say something either mean or hurtful back. Fuck ‘em.

Sadly the people in which I talk about here usually don’t read this, just needed to vent.

A couple questions

A few questions have been going through my head that I have been pondering for a while now and I have yet to come up with a complete answer. So now I shall ask any who read this, and any who care to answer.

What does it mean to be a man?

What does it mean to be human?

Post your answers in a reply if you would

World War 3?

I have been thinking about the world.

I do not think that their will be another world war, for I think that the human self preservation instinct is to strong to allow it. For everyone knows that if a new world war came about most of the human race would die. I do not think that we would allow that to happen, and i think we would go to great measures to avoid it.

However something really bad could happen, and all hell could break loose.

Old self

For those that actually do read this, time is starting to go at a more normal speed. And I am starting to feel more like myself.

Though you’ll probably not notice if you run into me, I am one that tends to keep their emotions inside, and it is rare for me to actually show them in a physical manner. I can be extremely happy or sad and my face will show no sign of either. It’s actually not something I do by choice it sort of just happens. Some people that no me not all that well believe that I am not an emotional man, however they are wrong.

I am a living example of the old saying Don’t judge a book by it’s cover.

Friends, chocolate and love

Have you ever had a friend that for some reason just stopped talking to you? Well I have. More times then I care to count. Usually for me it just happens. I become pretty good friends with some of these people and then bam it’s like they don’t care you exist.

So why I’m thinking about it lets talk about chocolate. I have heard that chocolate is supposed to make you feel that you are in love. I must say that I have had chocolate and have been in love and frankly I don’t think they are even near each other. For one if I eat to much chocolate I get sick, however love I just can’t get enough of. Chocolate it melts, the feeling it give you goes away, with true love it stays. Some of you say that love stinks or that it is over rated. That usually means you have been hurt in the past, and I truly feel sorry for those that do not give love a second chance. And another thing, I hate it when people say loves sucks, cause frankly I just don’t get it. Does the love for your family suck? Or is it the love for your friends? Or is it over that chick that broke your heart last week? Do ya see what I’m getting at?

Their is a quote by someone named Randall G. Leighton and he says, “Work like you don’t need money, love like you’ve never been hurt and dance like no one is watching.” In other works, enjoy your live, be happy. Do not look back on the regrets of yesterday, move on to today and smile at a friendly face.

Random

So I was gettin ready to make lunch today, and I was lookin around and I saw Chicken gravy. So I thought to myself that chicken sounded good. So I made the chicken and as I took the first bite I realized I did not want chicken. No I wanted chicken gravy.

Their was a parade today in Pittsburgh, do to the Steelers wining the Superbowl. I did not watch the game, I don’t really like sports all that much. I was planing on watching the parade, and I was actually their for a while. But I do not like being in a large crowd where people keep bumping into me. That and like no matter where I stood someone would come along and start smoking. I can not stand cigarette smoke. I can’t breath around it and depending on what it is it may make me feel sick. So eventually I had enough and left.

I have been trying to clean and organize my room, but I do not have any idea where to start. I am not one known for their organizational skills.

I have been wondering why some people do the things they do. My roommate almost got kicked out of school because he has failed a third of his classes. This quarter yet again he says things will be different. He even stopped playing World of Warcraft to focus more. But now he is back playing WoW and he has already missed one class. I know that my roommate wants to stay at this school, I know he is in the major that he wants to be in. Yet his actions seem to speak otherwise. I simply can not wrap my mind around it.

I have bought a 360 and I am starting to wonder if I should. For I only have 2 games for it and one I’ve already beat. And I really don’t play it all that often, I wish to get more games for it but I don’t want to spend money on them. I have to many other things that I need to buy first. I do not think it was a wise decision on my part.

Happy?

Yesterday I had fun.

I felt happy yesterday, and I feel happy today.

Man I miss happy… Happy feels good.

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Why am I an Atheist

Why am I an atheist? Well, why are you not?

Terrible horrific things happen every day, but yet religious people will say its all in gods plan. God’s plan is to kill people of starvation, have babies die at birth, have people murder other people, not tell us which religion is right so that we fight and kill each other trying to prove that we are right? Oh man, that sounds like an awesome plan!

Or better yet you say it’s all in God’s plan but when something bad happens it was the devils fault. But I thought God was all powerful and shit, couldn’t he kick the devil in the balls and say “Get out my yard!” or something?

He is one of my favorite quotes that I found, “Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?”

Why do I not believe in God? Well Why don’t you believe is Zeus?

Now take whatever you gave as an answer to why you don’t believe is Zeus, not that is why I don’t believe in God.

People that believe in God say that people that don’t believe in God are evil… Have you read the Bible? How many people does your god kill, how many people die in his name? Fuck, I mean if that book is right God has whiped out entire civilizations. Dude God sounds like a great guy.

I do what is right becuase I know it is right, I do not do evil things because I know it is wrong. Right is right, and wrong is wrong, god or no god. You do the right thing for you fear  going to hell and want to get to heaven. So are you saying you don’t do bad things cause you don’t want to go to hell? This is were I get kind of lost. You seem like a nice person and you do nice things, but yet you say you only do it to get into heaven. So now I’m not sure if you actually are a nice person or if you just fear your God so much that you are nice.

So I’m goin to burrow something from the great George Carlin, if you don’t know him, I suggest you look him up. Here it goes, If God is real may he strike me dead. Ok, if God is real may he strike me dead right now!

Hmmm ……. I’m still here. Damn.